Wednesday, March 2, 2011

A Practice in Perseverance

So, most of you know (at least you should know if you follow my art blog) that I am enrolled in College Plus! and have been in the process over the past year of taking one CLEP exam after the other to "test out" of lots of classes before I officially enroll in a college to finish my degree (Release a sigh after that long sentence!).
Well, now you know.
Last month, I took the dreaded microeconomics exam--I use "dreaded" here to describe a completely foreign subject and one that uses the dusty side of my brain--it was pretty rough but I managed through the study period, and after taking a few practice tests, praying, eating many M&M's (my new relaxing habit), I took the exam.
And I failed miserably.
Now, you have to know that I consider myself to be a pretty laid back person; the kind that's just happy to be there and it takes quite a bit to make me frustrated, angry, or impatient. Well, little did I know that just because it might take me longer to get to a certain point, that doesn't give me an excuse to give in, have a pity party, or stop persevering--but back to the story.
Needless to say, I was incredibly disappointed. Not only did I fail but I failed miserably, and in six months I will have to start studying for this all over again. I was also pretty disappointed in myself, and at the fact that things always turn out better when you can do them in retrospect.
And to cut to the chase, the Lord showed me that I need to rely on His strength, when I am weak; that persevering is only difficult when times are difficult; that I should not be discouraged but to always hope in Him.
Life is only trying when I attempt to live it by myself and with my own strength.
Praise God for His faithfulness and the grace only He can give, each and every day.
God is good.

Yes, I know that is a lot to get from a failed exam but sometimes it's the little and trivial things in life that make all the difference.

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

Oh Elena... I'm not sure how to express the thoughts I'm thinking, but I want to let you know that I am thinking of and praying for you! It is a very difficult thing to try your hardest and fail. I'm praying that, as you mentioned in the post, God will fill you with comfort (2 Cor 1:3-4). Praise the Lord that He has opened your eyes to the bigger picture that He is painting.

Grieving/rejoicing with you,


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